Rekindle the Spark

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. 1. I don't really like chocolate. 2. I had the meanest jaw surgery ever, where I had to have my mouth wired shut for a week (losing 25 lbs. in a week is not healthy and doesn't feel good at all). 3. I've never been outside of the United States. 4. Hawaii is my dream vacation, and have never been there. 5. I'm more comfortable in my dance clothes and sweats, than wearing anything else. 6. I find joy in beautifying myself, and doing my make up and hair, it gives me a sense of peace. 7. I'm OCD about random things like labels facing outward, and keeping things on counters in some sort of geometrical organization. 8. I just rediscovered how much I love apple butter. 9. I always have crushes on guys who never want me. 10. My boyfriend now, is my first boyfriend ever. He's the first guy to ask me out on a second date, and he's the first g...

Tearing muscle tissue in my leg, was by far the most frustrating ordeal to cope with, at a time when I felt so motivated to complete my university education. The shuttering thought of humiliation I went through in the hours and hours of endless therapy still haunts me. Day after day for 3 months straight, just learning to walk, run, and jump again, are the memories that still scar my mind. I dread of the nightmare I'd be in if I were to ever find myself back in that crummy situation. If you had asked any of my schoolmates back in high school where I would be in 7 years, they all would have definitely said graduated from the university. Now that I was determined to come back after working a long hard summer for school payments, I find myself still short of money. A girl with no money can't go to school. Barely making ends meet with bills, is no way to live. Be prepared for the rainy day, because you never know when in the blink of an eye your course is to change completely...

So 4 weeks ago my bestest friend Yoko, told me about how great of a time she had at this cafe for a poetry night. I wanted to attend really badly, but my mother was in town and I was just moving back into my Provo apartment from the east coast. 2 weeks later, it was poetry night again at the cafe. I was determined not to miss it this time, however, it was the first night that my boyfriend Justin was in town. I had no other choice than to drag him, I mean, invite him to the poetry party (He was such a good sport). I had a blast listening to all the inspired works of poetry and realized, "Man, I miss writing poetry." I don't think I've written much poetry since...high school? So I was motivated to let the creative juices start flow once again. As I was leaving poetry night I thought to myself, "The next time I come back, I'm coming back with a personal written poem in my hand to recite." Before leaving I was already thinking about what to write about...

What a crazy summer it's been. And little posts to show for it. But yeah. Here I am, in Holland, OH. Working in Toledo for the extended with AMP. Selling Guardian/Armstrong Security. Just a little under a full week left, and 4 sales to get to my second best month. So that's at least one sale every other day. I'm currently aiming to beat my second best month of sales, to have these numbers go toward my summer sales count for 2010. I'm trying to cushion my 44 sales. While in Columbia, South Carolina, I met a boy who I was very much interested in, but I felt he had absolutely no interest in me. I was more there at his convenience. And I just kept hoping he would change his mind. It's funny how as girls, we always give guys the benefit of the doubt. But realistically I should know to stop wasting my time hoping that he'll come around. The truth is, I don't think that boy was into me. The cruel reality, that no girl wants to admit to. So I moved up to...

"Much of the confusion we experience in this life comes from simply not understanding who we are." -President Dieter F. Uchtdorf After a difficult day, I cannot even begin to explain how precious the words of this man can bring so much peace to my heart. My down, aching, and disappointed heart. If only I saw myself the way the Lord sees me, then I would not doubt. "If only we understood who we are, and what is in store for us, our hearts would overflow with such gratitude and happiness,then it would enlighten even the darkest souls with the light and love of God." The Ugly Duckling...a favorite of my childhood stories. Enjoy this short video clip, and feel your heart regain strength, joy, and love. :)

Take a chance... Leaps of Faith. I think we do this constantly. I can't think of any of life's significant experiences that I haven't jumped forward in faith, not knowing how things will turn out for sure in the end. No regrets. One of the hugest things I've learned out here in South Carolina is how to control my confidence, how to build it, and how to make it last. I think it's funny because the one thing that I've always struggled with, no matter how comfortable I am with the task, is my confidence. Everyone always talks about my potential, and what I am capable of. I realized that everyone's belief in me can only take me so far, that if I want to progress beyond what I already have that I would need to start really believing in myself. As humans, we build up walls for ourselves, thinking that's all that we'll ever be able to live up to. When in reality, I think we limit ourselves to insurmountable heights. I've always been a bit of a dre...

Spoke with Haley today... She told me, "Gio you need to update your blog more." I respond, "I know." So here I am. Updating... I had originally hoped I would have kept a better journal of my summer sales experiences. But I haven't. But here I go. I think the most difficult of things that I deal with out here in South Carolina, are two things that begin with the letter D: 1. Doubt 2. Distractions I realized the other day that my biggest fear of this job is not the fact that I walk through some of the most strange and creepy neighborhoods, but more that I doubt my own abilities. I think my greatest fear is to fail. I'm too scared to reach the end of the summer and fail at summer sales. I don't want to fail. I really want to reach my goal. I don't want to be in a tough situation where I don't finish my last year of school due to finances, and struggle the way I did last year with my leg injury, and work, and school. It was too overwhelming, I...