Rekindle the Spark

So, I'm sitting here at work...thinking...that I can't think of a time, when I'm not thinking...LOL. But yeah, first, I still have to post all those blogs about all my fun adventures that I've documented on my camera. And I'll try to get to that later today...if not definitely tomorrow. But on another note, I've been particularly thinking about how I'm getting OLD. Now, I know I'm not OLD as in ANCIENT...but my look is changing. It's interesting how as a little kid you're never really aware of how your physical look is actually evolving and aging and even maturing. But I feel like, when I look in the mirror now, I've seen physical changes in my appearance, that I just don't have any physical control over anymore. No make-up or clothing can change the fact that I have dark baggier undereyes than I did before, or that I'm just an older person now. And the cruel reality is that I certainly don't feel as pretty as I did last year. H

Moving out can be a very stressful mess. But being the last roommate to move out, can be a person's worst nightmare. Let me see, it started out when I received a letter in the mail on August 4th stating that I needed to be out of the apartment by August 16th, which was a Sunday. Thinking I had plenty of time to move out, I noticed Vanessa moving out early because she was engaged and already moving things into her new house. Low and behold time snuck up on me, and it was became the move out week, unfortunately due to poor planning I had a full week of work scheduled as well. But I figured that I still had the whole weekend to move out. Big mistake! On the morning of August 14th, the Friday before I was suppose to be all moved out, REMS management slaps a note on the front door saying you have to be out by "August 14th," just as I was leaving the apt to go to a full night of work. I laughed...You can't put a note on someones door, and say you must be out by "

Have you ever had a gloomy day in the office? It's raining and the window view of the gray stormy clouds can have the most subtle affect on your general mood bringing you slightly down in energy, and reflective at thought. As I left the office that one rainy evening during the summer season, I was doing some personal reflection, and things felt pretty lower than usual in my mood. But then I looked up into sky, and I felt a sense of relief and kindness, and a warm glow in my heart grew as I noticed a double rainbow smiling back at me. I'm not sure what it is about rainbows, but since my childhood rainbows have always cheered me up instantly. When people asked me what my favorite color was I always said "I love rainbows," and what my favorite ice cream was, "I love the rainbow ice cream" (which was really sherbet mix). Anyone who knows me, knows that I love dressing in bright colors too! For me rainbows give off a feeling of magic. I like to imagine that

I should probably let you all know that as I worked my 3 jobs during the summer, I started to feel exhausted and overworked, and because of my fatigue I wasn't able to give 100% in all 3 job environments. So even though I would have loved to keep all three jobs of ABA Therapy, Custodial at BYU, and the AMP Call Center, I decided to end my time working with Tate in ABA Therapy in July, and continued working with my Custodial job and AMP. As school began to approach in the fall I was aware I could not keep both jobs, and I began to wonder if either job was right for me to keep with my school schedule after summer ends. With the custodial work, church had taken a back seat in my life, and I didn't want that to continue being a problem in my life. So I made the decision to end things with my custodial job, even though I had achieved a promotion as the WILK Weekend Crew Restroom Supervisor. This left me working AMP in September, but even then I didn't have a secure position i

My best friend Tiffany recently wrote a blog on the things she is grateful for...and I thought to myself..."Self! Whenever we are down and the weight of the world feels like it's on our shoulders, we must always remember to recognize the things we are grateful for!" So Tiffany...thank you for reminding me that even when we feel like we have nothing, there always is something. :) Things I'm grateful for: 1.The Gospel (The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints)- It is the one thing that truly makes sense in my mind and my heart. Nothing is more comforting than my personal testimony of the Holy Ghost, Jesus Christ, and Heavenly Father. The fact that I know they are all real, and that they love me unconditionally, and want me to live worthily so that I may live to my fullest potential on Earth, and return back to live with my Heavenly Father some day. I can feel the hand of God in my life, I know he is there, and he listens, makes me aware of the needs of other